I’m being honest. Not going to sugarcoat or edit. I’m getting big. When I went to the doctor and 190 was on the scale I was like 🤮😳. How did I get here??? On July 2, 2018, I started this journey. 2 days in I’m meeting my eating goals, exercise goals, and my water intake goals. However, it’s only been two days. Today scares me and I’m a little on edge. How do I not enjoy cold Cokes and sweet treats? How do I avoid the coconut rum and pineapple juice? Do I let this be a cheat day? I have another family event on Saturday. Do I let that be the cheat day?? How do I make this work? I’m using a little pharmaceutical help just because my doctor is worried about a few things and wants to help me get that kickstart. Wish me luck. #dosomething
How are you? What is going on? You okay? Depending on the time of the day or the minute I just survived the answer could be hopeful or hopeless. I keep it inside mostly, because for years I was afraid to let the truth out. The truth of what I was going through, the depth of the pain and hurt, the sheer exhaustiveness that was my life. So I ask myself these questions: Where am I at? What am I going through? What have I survived? How do I move forward? Is it possible to heal? I am grieving. I am in grief over the loss of what I thought my life would be and the loss of my grandfather. To start you have to review the traditional stages of grief. http://psychcentral.com/lib/the-5-stages-of-loss-and-grief/000617 1. Denial and Isolation, I am not in denial that my marriage is over, that I quit my job, or that my grandfather is gone. I am in denial that the lifelong image of what I pictured my life being. I saw myself as happy with two beautiful childre...
So I started out bored on 01-20-2012, thinking I do want a tattoo I should draw one. So this is what I drew. I texted Valerie and this is how that conversation went... Me: Val what are you doing tomorrow? Val: Nothing why? Me: I am thinking about doing this and sent her the above picture. Val: Hold on. Me: Okay. Val: You have an appointment tomorrow at 11:15 am. And the whirlwind of getting a tattoo started. Where to put it? Will I do it? It was quite exciting. And of course my twitter family blew it up...love that. The hubs was excited and said he couldn't wait to see it. And of course wanted to make sure that I was sure it was what I wanted. (What a sweet guy.) So the morning seemed to drag and after working for a bit I was on my way with Valerie to get my first ink. I love my sister... So here is the process... Picking the right spot... Getting started... Doing the outline... Outline done... Then the garnet... And then the gold....
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